21

Sooo, I met this amazing guy..well I met him a while ago when I first caught his eye in when I was going into 7th or 8th grade and he was graduating. He’s literally perfect in everyway. He met my mom for the first time and had the longest conversation with her. Which is a plus because finally she likes the guy I’m talking to:) and he cuddles with me all the time, which is my favorite :) besides when he picks me up with my legs wrapped around him and moves the hair out of my face and kisses me. He’s so cute. He even sat in my house after everyone left not tryinn to get with me at all but cuddling with me on his lap playing words with friends..that sounds wicked lame, but it makes me happy bdcause I’m not used to that with guys. My only wish is he doesn’t play me and lead me on so I feel all this for nothing. I honestly think I’m starting to develop strong feelings for him and its only been a couple days..ah I hope this works, the only problem is I’m 15 nd he’s 21…that looks EXTREMELY bad and somewhat low..but I don’t care because he looks younger than he is, and can act it to. He also has a mature side which I love because my previous boyfriend IS the most immature person I’ve ever had to deal with. He can be an adult, and a funny kid at the same time and that’s awesome. Another great thing is when he smiles at me, i get chils down.my spine of like happiness. And his eyes<3 their the most captivating green eyes I’ve ever had the pleasure of looking into;) he even came over at like 10pm the other night and stayed till 3ish am because we were cuddling up smoking & watching a movie. That’s anther thing my ex had to leave early all the time even on weekends and he barely cuddles with me..and he smokes with me which is an extreme super plus because none of my exes smoke. And he has a car, and can drive which is just another plus. Man oh man I’ve already said a lot about him that has only happened the past couple of days, if things are going this good then he’s definitely a keeper :)

I can never do anything right

Truth, I can never get one thing right. I mess everything up. I don’t believe in myself at all, which is why I never go through with things. Everyone doubts me and if I try and show them wrong it backfires on me. can anyone please tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.